Online Hope for Abortion’s Wounded Hearts

“No women are contacting us about our abortion recovery services,” the pregnancy center director stated. “I don’t know how to reach these hearts with the hope of God’s healing. Can you help us?”

It was my delight to share about Ramah International’s new online abortion recovery website at HerChoicetoHeal.com. By linking her pregnancy center’s donor and client website to this free website, this center is now reaching post-abortive people in their community at a deeper level and God’s healing work is booming.

The HerChoicetoHeal.com online abortion recovery website is currently the only complete abortion recovery online course. Each of the nine sessions contain nine lessons that offer more details on the emotions of healing after abortion.

Going through every lesson within each session is NOT required for God’s healing. For those who want as much information as possible, the content should answer nearly every question on how abortion has impacted them along with various encouraging stories and the ways of God to encourage their recovery. Visitors can also navigate through the website and read topics about specific symptoms that are impacting friends or family members.

The HerChoicetoHeal.com website’s sessions include the following topics:

There are many ways that HerChoicetoHeal.com can help you either personally or professionally share God’s compassion with those who have made this choice. Here are just a few:

Link to HerChoicetoHeal.com on your life-affirming, post-abortion or pregnancy center website(s):

There are millions of individuals in our world who are struggling in silence with the pain of their abortion experience. Some of the best supporters of life-affirming efforts have chosen abortion yet lack the courage to reach out physically or vocally to identify as a post-abortive person. Many do not have the emotional strength to vocally share this difficult sin out loud. Thankfully, they can gain great comfort in discovering a website that offers a private way to address this pain without sharing their abortion truth publicly.

Linking to HerChoicetoHeal.com on your own website(s) – or in social media posts relating to abortion – shows that you care about the broken people who made this choice. It presents confirmation of your compassion. If they never contact you, HerChoicetoHeal.com can help them discover God’s peace without any human involvement.

By advertising the HerChoicetoHeal.com on your social media outlets, abortion’s wounded can visit the website privately and discover basic information about how abortion may have impacted them. It can help them begin their healing process because it identifies their abortion as the source of their emotional, spiritual, psychological and physical pain.

The Ramah International team is committed to referring website contacts into healthy local abortion recovery programs. We know that there is nothing like direct, face-to-face compassion to comfort these hearts . Our team contacts local ministry groups to obtain program information. If the program is a healthy one, we will share that information with them and hope they make local contact.

Should they require additional privacy, are still too concerned about vocally admitting this sin to others, or if a healthy program is not available in their community, our team will continue to help them throughout their healing journey. We have already been doing this extensively across our World.

Feature the HerChoicetoHeal.com website whenever you are speaking about abortion or discussing the services of your life-affirming organization.

Whenever abortion is discussed in general society, it’s important to realize post-abortive people are listening. Most expect to be judged and cast out if their abortion secret is ever revealed. If they are anticipating rejection, they can research the website privately and always be within reach of our dedicated team who can help as well.

Sidewalk counselors are welcome to distribute business cards featuring the HerChoicetoHeal.com website outside abortion clinics. These cards can then become a lifeline to God’s healing in the future as well as evidence of compassion.

A perfect way to vocalize your compassion to post abortive people is this “sound-bite” developed by Dr. James Dobson: I know I’m talking to many individuals who have experienced abortion. I want you to know that there is no sin that God cannot forgive. The problem maybe you don’t forgive yourself and you may need help. We are here to help…”

Use the HerChoicetoHeal.com website to supplement your existing abortion recovery program

Every woman is different when it comes to processing the pain of abortion. Some can only withstand reading about abortion for a few minutes during certain triggers of their pain. Others research abortion online, discovering graphic photos that can wound or judgmental posts that brand post-abortive women as serial killers.

Some wounded hearts require “triage” ministry services to help them understand their pain will not be deepened in talking about their abortion. Beginning their healing journey with the HerChoicetoHeal.com website can also build courage in making local contact.

Once denial is broken and abortion is discovered as a pain source, many are driven to research every possible angle about how abortion impacts hearts. HerChoicetoHeal.com offers them a unique source of organized information to investigate online versus asking detailed questions to someone who may not have many answers.

Even in existing abortion recovery classes, information about how abortion impacts women at a detailed level can be difficult to uncover since so few write about the other side of abortion pain. The HerChoicetoHeal.com website acts as a source of detailed and compassionate information that is designed to calm their fears and open their hearts to God’s love and forgiveness.

Whatever abortion recovery program you are using, HerChoicetoHeal.com contains a vast storehouse of answers to commonly asked questions by those who are beginning their healing process with God. Linking to this website and featuring it on business cards if you are part of a pregnancy center, sidewalk counseling or political effort can help the silent post-abortive people who are among you in society.

 Other HerChoicetoHeal.com Uses:

Shattering Sexual Soul Ties is addressed in Session 8. This session is an excellent tool for anyone struggling with past promiscuity issues. Each lesson includes God’s word regarding sexual sin and provides a simple way to confess, heal and release past sexual sins from our hearts.

Sharing the Secret of Abortion is the topic in Session 9. It offers a list of healthy steps to take before sharing an abortion secret in public. Post-abortive women who can professionally share their often-horrific experience in an abortion clinic can bring understanding to our world that abortion is not good for women. This session also walks through how to recognize God’s voice and understand if He is truly calling the individual to participate in either politics or ministry efforts relating to abortion.

HerChoicetoHeal.com is also a wonderful source of information for high school and college students who are researching the impact of abortion on our society.

To assist you in reviewing HerChoicetoHeal.com, Ramah International has produced a Website Content Manual along with a separate Website User’s Manual for those who want to enhance their own ministry efforts by using this website resource. These books are also useful for those who either cannot access the website directly or who prefer a tangible copy of the information to go through off-line.

Please keep our team in your prayers and prayerfully consider making a tax-deductible financial donation to support us in launching this website to the World. Our globe is packed with individuals sitting in silent prisons of pain after this choice, unable to make personal contact to seek help or ask questions about how their abortion impacted them. Now they have a way to discover God’s healing in a deeply confidential manner!

 

 

 

Healing for Abortion’s Bloodguilt

“The man outside the abortion clinic called me a murderer,” a post-abortive woman shared with me. “He said that I would rot in Hell, Sydna. The blood of my little baby is on my hands. How can God ever forgive me?”

Bloodguilt results after murder or bloodshed. In abortion, the term fits.

When a woman exits an abortion clinic, one is dead and the other is often wounded. This mother also assumes a new title from society if they discover her abortion sin – murderer.

Post-abortive hearts often arrive at a false belief that in ending their tiny child’s life, they have committed an unforgivable sin. Many then pursue other self-destructive behaviors, falsely believing they somehow deserve the worst treatment due to making this horrendous choice.

When we confess our sin of abortion, many don’t realize that it isn’t in God’s character to hold our sins against us. He wants to forgive and heal our hearts and cleanse us from our iniquity. He can heal even the bloodguilt that marks an abortion experience.

Before we were born, God knew every sin we would commit. This truth is revealed in Psalm 139:15-16My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

As I exited the abortion clinic where my child had died, I distinctly remember realizing I had just committed the worst sin possible. The voice of the accuser – Satan – amplified that mindset.

In that angry and hopeless mode, I pursued other sinful behaviors which drew me farther away from God’s loving voice. It would take seven years for God to pull away the clouds of sin that blinded me to His grace and mercy. That understanding arrived when I first stared into the eyes of my next-born child.

My healing experience included a direction from God to forgive everyone who impacted my child’s death. One by one, I worked through the anger and grief as God helped me pardon each involved player. I was finally able to release them to God’s divine judgment. The peace that resulted in my heart was phenomenal.

The next step in my healing was asking God for other names that I needed to forgive. When I heard a name in my heart, I balked. It made no sense that God would want me to forgive another murderer.

A year and a half before my abortion recovery class, my friend and neighbor was brutally murdered by a woman who was having an affair with her husband. It was Dianne Hood’s death that began my grieving process for my lost child.

When I heard the name of Dianne’s murderer in my heart – Jennifer Reali – I thought, ““She murdered a mother of three. She doesn’t deserve forgiveness.”

Instantly another message flew into my brain – “And you allowed your firstborn to die in an abortion clinic. Tell me how you are any different from Jennifer Reali?”

I knew that thought had not come from my own brain because I clearly would never have considered that perspective. Undeniable Godly conviction washed over my soul.

When God puts a task in your heart, it’s best to surrender or He’ll keep you up at night. After a long battle with sleeplessness, I hung my head and reached out to this murderer in prison.

I wrote Jennifer Reali a letter and asked her to forgive me for hating her. When I put the letter in the mailbox, I lost 40 emotional pounds. I expected nothing more from the correspondence but that initial peace.

I was shocked when Jennifer Reali wrote back. Her first sentence was, “Please forgive me for murdering your friend…”

My heart leaped when I read that sentence. I got down on my knees and cried. My bitterness shattered into a million pieces. Joy returned to my heart in that instant. I realized God had pushed me to forgive Jennifer for my sake, not hers!   

I never realized what a gift it could be to my heart to receive this apology from such a notorious inmate residing in a state penitentiary.  Jennifer accepted Jesus into her heart at the time of her arrest in September of 1990. Her apology sparked a pen pal friendship where she would bless me on many difficult ministry days with tangible encouraging letters.

Soon I discovered that before she had murdered my friend, Jennifer had chosen abortion twice. During our first physical meeting, she said, “I believe at least 80% of the women in this prison have chosen abortion. No one is ministering to our hearts. While we have many other sins that define our incarceration, no one in prison ever talks about their past abortion, even if they are convicted of murder like me.”

We then reviewed the journey of three murderers from the Bible – Moses, David and Paul. Jennifer ministered to my heart about the forgiveness God had given her for the bloodguilt of taking Dianne’s life. With God’s help, she helped me release the bloodguilt from my heart at a much deeper level.

If God can take the murderous actions of three men that He clearly loved and used after they sinned, my bloodguilt of abortion could also be turned for His good. These biblical stories remind us that the fellowship of healed murderers can result in God’s love flowing down into our World in a unique and powerful way!

Even in taking an innocent life, when we truly repent and ask God for forgiveness, it has been granted! This is outlined in Colossians 2: 13-14: When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the charge of our legal indebtedness, which stood against us and condemned us; he has taken it away, nailing it to the cross.

Receiving the truth of God’s forgiveness into our heart after abortion can be challenging in a world where divisive abortion politics are discussed daily in media outlets. We need to re-adjust our thoughts by embracing the truth of God’s divine redemption daily.

Reading God’s word daily is essential in this process. An abortion recovery class can help you draw closer to God’s love and amazing forgiveness. Other emotions are also addressed like denial, grief, forgiveness, mourning and memorializing. Working through the healing process is the best way to free us to experience God’s blessed exoneration.

The photo above was taken of Jennifer and I this past summer when we finally met outside prison walls after 27 years of friendship. She’s been paroled and is now ministering to other prisoners who transfer back into our society.

I’m grateful that God never wastes even our sinful past. The murderer named Paul outlines this truth perfectly in I Timothy 1:15-17Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen.

If you know someone who has experienced abortion, offer your heart by compassionately speaking to them about God’s grace and mercy after any sin. Have your local pregnancy center information available so you can refer to their abortion recovery program!

On this Easter week, realize Jesus died for ALL our sins… even abortion.

 

Stranger at the Abortion Clinic

“This is an abortion clinic! What is she doing here?” I thought as a stranger entered the room. “She does not look like a person who should be having an abortion.”

The girl resembled a preppy teenager with short red hair and clear pale skin. “Likely a college student who didn’t use contraception,” I assumed, judging her.

Bright red splotches appeared over her neck revealing her obvious stress and discomfort in this dark environment. She walked like a terrified lamb, obviously ready to flee the spirit of death that encircled her heart.

Pulling cash out of her purse, the red head delivered the abortion fee at the payment desk. Services must be paid for in advance at this abortion firm.

The receptionist took the cash and handed the teen a clip board. As she sat down near me, I saw a tear fall from the corner of her eye.

As I watched, she carefully completed the requested information. I speculated that she listed a fake name like so many others in the room. Then I discounted that idea based on her seemingly pure presentation.

She only appeared innocent. She clearly was not since she was sitting alone in an abortion clinic.

When she completed the clipboard task, she stared at the other women in the room. Most were quietly weeping. Then she took a deep breath, closed her eyes and put her head in her hands.

I could read her body language. There was a strange ambiance of holiness that seemed to encircle her. That Godly vibe did not fit in those surroundings.

“She’s likely a church girl,” I reasoned. “Afraid to be caught in a trap of sexual sin. She’s such a hypocrite! Imagine if her mother knew where she was right now.”

Suddenly the side door bolted open as an abortion clinic attendee opened a side door. Dressed in medical scrubs, she called a strange sounding name.

The red head jerked as if suddenly awakened from a deep slumber. With obvious effort, she stood up and followed the attendant into the long, dark hallway that obviously led to the clinic’s abortion theater.

My heart felt pity for the teen as I saw her shiver before the door closed behind her. If I had been in another place, I may have prayed for her. But this was no place for prayer. This was a place of death.

To occupy time, I thought about her circumstance. Her internal angst was nearly tangible.

Was she aborting to keep her parents from discovering she was no longer a virgin? Were their rules at her school that would have expelled her due to being pregnant and not married? Did she have a man forcing her to abort his baby? Did she want to make another choice?

Then a strange sound broke through the quiet office space. Horrified, I realized it was a woman screaming.

The noise seemed to be quickly muffled. Then it broke through whatever was attempting to contain it and the screams began again. On and off, I could hear that horrible sound.

“Must be the red head,” I thought sadly.

While my heart wanted to free her from whatever was causing her such harm, it wasn’t my place. I couldn’t rescue her. She had made her choice and must suffer accordingly.

To escape the traumatizing sounds, I got up and walked out of the clinic. I then gazed into the parking lot outside which seemed quiet except for movement in one parked car. A young man was sitting in his vehicle, obviously listening to the radio and playing air guitar.

“Must be her boyfriend,” I reasoned with a grimace. “He is no hero. He waited in the car and made her come into the clinic alone! What a jerk!”

The younger man’s appearance was clearly not as wholesome as the red head. As I was watching him, a look of panic materialized on his face. His next expression bore the likelihood of an internal argument.

I was quite shocked when he got out of the car and walked ten feet toward the clinic. His intent gaze appeared as if he was considering rescuing his damsel in distress.

Then he stopped and threw his hands in the air. His mouth was moving so I assumed he was talking to himself. When he turned around and headed back to the sanctuary of his vehicle, I knew he had talked himself out of liberating her.

He had changed his mind, I realized. He was no knight in shining armor.

When sufficient time had passed, I walked back into the clinic’s waiting room and sat down again. When the door eventually opened, the red head was the first to emerge.

Our eyes met and then our identities merged.

I suddenly realized this red-headed teenage stranger was actually me.

For eleven years I worked to assimilate myself into the personality of the teen who took the life of her own child that day. I was fearful of her possible return to do more damage to my life. So I kept her well hidden in my heart.

One day, God’s love broke through the steel door that enclosed my heart. He sent a message of hope from a new boss – Dr. James Dobson. Dr. Dobson said, “I know I’m talking to many women who have experienced abortion.”

It was shocking that someone was addressing me personally as a post-abortive person. I quieted down and listened closely to the next part of his comments, hoping he wasn’t about to condemn me.

“There is no sin that God cannot forgive,” Dr. Dobson continued. “The problem maybe you don’t forgive yourself. You may need help. We are here to help!”

His point struck deep within my heart. How could I ever forgive that red haired stranger that had walked into that abortion clinic and allowed a precious child to die?

Soon God would lead me into an abortion recovery program. During that amazing period, a team from the local pregnancy center helped me acknowledge, understand and forgive the former version of myself in that clinic. This difficult healing step brought great peace and ended many of my anxiety issues.

Philippians 4:6-7 then was fulfilled in my life – Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

If you have chosen abortion, God can help you forgive the stranger inside of you that made that choice. Our online abortion recovery program can help you begin to address a past abortion with God’s help. Our team is ready to help!

If you know a woman who visited an abortion clinic, realize they aren’t a stranger. Help them to understand that God’s love, grace and mercy are available to help them find peace.  Offer them the same healing message that Dr. Dobson offered my tender heart.

God’s healing is just a prayer away!

 

The Irish Abortion Vote

“You are my dreams fulfilled, Sydna,” my Irish maternal grandfather announced upon meeting me when I was 5 years old. “You are my American grandchild, a citizen of the land flowing with milk and honey!”

The stark reality is that had I been born in Ireland, I likely never would have experienced abortion because abortion in Ireland remains illegal. My family’s beautiful Irish European culture has blissfully been free of the dominance of abortion viewpoints that insist women should control every part of their fertility.

Sadly, an abortion-free Ireland may end with this May battle to advance abortion access in Ireland. This vote will determine whether or not Ireland will retain the 1983 Eighth Amendment to their Constitution, which places an equal right to life on the unborn child and the mother. Abortion activists hope this amendment will be voted out, allowing unrestricted abortion up to the 12th week of pregnancy in Ireland.

Nowhere in the world is abortion more unusual than in Ireland. One of the few common elements in the South and North nations of Ireland is the absence of legalized abortion. While Northern Ireland basically is part of the United Kingdom – where many children are aborted every day – abortion remains illegal in the north as well.

Ireland has a very low abortion rate. The number of women traveling to other nations for this procedure has fallen by 50% since 2001. This was long after the abortion pill became available. According to and article from the BBC, “Fewer women are having abortions precisely because Irish society became more open, more tolerant, more compassionate and gave women better support.”

Irish women can obviously pursue an abortion in England or other nations. It is estimated that  nearly 200,000 Irish unborn children have been lost to abortion since 1968. If an Irish woman is caught trying to abort their child in Ireland, she faces a potential 14 year prison sentence. There has yet to be a prosecution – as far as we know – of a woman or girl for taking the abortion pill.

This isn’t the first time the Irish have voted on abortion. In 1992, the Supreme Court held in the X Case that a thirteen-year-old girl who had become pregnant as a result of rape could be permitted to obtain an abortion in the state. There were unsuccessful referendums in 1992 and in 2002 which would have overturned this decision and removed the risk of suicide as a ground for an abortion.

There has been a series of litigation in both Irish and international courts on abortion in Ireland. In A, B and C v Ireland (2010), the European Court of Human Rights found that Ireland had violated the European Convention on Human Rights by failing to provide an accessible and effective procedure by which a woman can have established whether she qualifies for a legal abortion under Irish law.

Pure Irish blood flows through my veins but my culture is American and not Irish. Children of immigrants typically have little family support or influence in their new nations. Immigrants often grapple to find their ways through a new culture while deeply retaining their birth country’s ethnicity.

Abortion’s ability to “erase a mistake” in an unexpected pregnancy made sex outside of marriage seem free of any consequences in my teenage mind. I had no idea abortion would be a choice that would negatively define me for the rest of my life.

Had abortion been illegal in America, I do not believe I would have crossed the line and had sex before marriage. My mother raised me to respect American law and to never put myself in a position where I could be arrested.

Before their divorce in 1973, my Irish parents worked to instill as much of the Irish culture in my life as possible. It’s common for a first generation American to be raised in one culture at home and enter a different ethnicity when they walk outside their home. That is a very confusing way to grow up, to say the very least. If they speak a different language, that makes the American assimilation process even more difficult.

There are few programs that prepare immigrants for the American way of life. Most that leave their home must learn their new culture personally and make their way through a vastly different world that has many ideals not shared with their home nations. Immigrants must obviously change and adapt quickly, which mystifies their family back home.

My mother was forced to work and dropped out of school at age 11. She then was employed in tobacco factory. For most of her youth, she rolled cigars. Her entire paycheck was collected by my grandmother so she never had a penny to use personally. My mother spent that time dreaming and planning her escape from poverty through a future life in America.

Being Irish-American meant I was the first female in my entire family line to have the ability to earn a college degree. When I was born, my mother fanned the feminist flames in my heart for educational achievement at a tender age. She vowed I would never be forced to “roll cigars” to support myself!

When I finally entered the college scene, my mother’s entire paycheck would go to support my college agenda. Ten months later, when I learned I was pregnant, I simply could not bring myself to destroy her college dreams for my life. Abortion then seemed like the perfect solution!

Those that have settled in the USA may also experience a great deal of pressure from relatives that may have actually sacrificed so that they could enjoy the benefits of American society. When my Irish family discovered my abortion, they seemed outraged. They had no idea why someone given such a great gift of American citizenship would do such a thing as have sex outside of marriage. They expected American family members to be highly successful and perhaps even send checks back home to support them.

Already the Irish government has agreed to the wording of a national referendum on abortion to be held by the end of May. If amendment 8 is removed from the Irish Constitution as a result of that vote, abortion could radically transform the lives of thousands of Irish women.

If Ireland votes to toss out Amendment 8, the government has said it will introduce legislation permitting unrestricted abortion during the first 12 weeks of pregnancy. Currently, abortions in Ireland are only allowed when the life of the mother is at risk.

The Her Choice to Heal abortion recovery website has already been accessed by Irish citizens. This website is an excellent healing resource for the post-abortive around the World to discover the hope of God’s grace and mercy.

Please pray for the nation of Ireland. Abortion never improves a culture. It only adds the horrifying element of blood guilt.

The Ministry Fruit of An Aborted Child

“I’m done with pregnancy center work,” the Client Services Manager of a pregnancy center told me at one of our training seminars. “I cannot bear the pain when the children that I see on our ultrasound screen are aborted. That is a rare pain that I don’t know how to process.”

One of the leading causes of burnout in pregnancy center work comes when clients choose abortion despite our loving efforts to help them chose life. The enemy uses these deaths to speak nasty messages into our heart like – This child died because of you! You need to quit because what you are doing isn’t working. Just give up!

All over the life-affirming movement, leadership constantly touts the “number of lives saved” through their efforts. While the accuracy of these numbers is rarely verified, these comments shift the praise of supporters to the individual ministry versus God who actually does the lifesaving work through us.

Spouting an ongoing “census” of the amount of lives saved through an organization can be out of God’s will for our ministry efforts unless we are very specific about giving Him the glory. For example, here are two ways to share the message of the impact of life-saving efforts:

  • The Woman’s Pregnancy Center saved 1,427 children from abortion
  • God used The Woman’s Pregnancy Center to save 1,427 children from abortion

The first statement credits the individual ministry and gives them the glory for saving lives. The second gives God all the glory for lives saved and builds additional credibility for the individual ministry as a Godly effort. After all, we all want to be used by God.

Matthew 6:18-20 exposes a truth that perhaps we should not be featuring exact numbers when it comes to lives saved – So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing. . .

Here’s another problem with life-affirming statistics – if these numbers are not tangibly verified by baby photos, names, or birth certificates, etc., they can be very misleading and even construed as false. If a ministry helps rescue one from abortion but ignores the needs of forty others who are aborted, they are not necessarily as fruitful as they possibly could be.

We simply should never take God’s fruit as our own. If we take the personal credit for saving lives, then we also become responsible for every life lost to abortion. When God receives the full credit for lives saved, He also assumes responsibility for the lives lost to abortion.

God cares more than we know, as shown in John 1:2-4He (Jesus) was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind.

Before we were even born, Jeremiah 1:5 reveals God knew all about the ministry fruit our reconciliation with Him would produce – Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart…

Because He created everything, God knows every life that He conceives. He knows their past, present and future. He creates children that He knows will be aborted. Therefore God also knows how He will use that child’s death to His good.

My child was lost in a horrific and painful way through abortion. Since healing my heart and helping me forgive myself for the role I played in my child’s death, God has used me extensively with abortion-vulnerable individuals. He also has used me in helping others who have chosen abortion find His healing. When I walked into that abortion clinic, He knew how He was going to use me to spare many the fate of abortion.

In my early ministry years, I would struggle with those I spoke with who chose abortion. Deep grief would overwhelm me after I discovered a child I had worked to save was in heaven. I felt I had failed God. There were many times when I did not hear back from those I spoke with about abortion and assumed the worst. I’ve tangibly grieved children only to discover later that the child I was mourning was very much alive!

Conversely, many whom I spoke with outlined they would not abort because of the information they had learned during our time together. I would jump around and celebrate those changed hearts with Godly joy. If I later learn they had aborted, my joy turns to deep sorrow. I would once again seek God’s confirmation that I was still effective for Him.

These were the moments when God was building my complete faith in Him for the work ahead. Peace would come over my grieving heart. Then I could release the burden for that child’s life back to God. Mark 5:34 discloses what happens in these circumstances – He (Jesus) said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

Often women leave abortion clinics in the “relief” stage of their abortion experience. Knowing that relief is often temporary, I always worked to plant seeds of compassion into their hearts in final conversations like, “I’m glad you called and let me know what happened. Always know that if you ever feel some of the emotional elements we discussed like grief, anger or guilt, I’m always here to help.”

Many days I pray for God to send more of His people into this ministry effort. There should be 10,000 pregnancy centers versus 2,000 in the USA. As He did with Gideon’s forces in the book of Judges, God keeps our numbers quite small. Judges 7:2 reveals why – The Lord said to Gideon, “You have too many men. I cannot deliver Midian into their hands, or Israel will boast against me saying, “My own strength has saved me.” 

The fruit of an aborted child that we worked to save rests in heaven. Even if they choose death, our efforts to help their parents are NEVER in vain. God sees our efforts even if the world does not. Nothing we do for God can ever be lost or unproductive. 2 Corinthians 4:17-18 outlines this truth – For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

 

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